speed bump.

last week was the start of my new running schedule. and as i said before, tuesdays were the day that i would be doing my speedwork. it was very different for me and i'm not quite a fan of it yet. however, when i did my first 100m sprint it sucked and i felt a sharp pain shoot down my right thigh...but i still continued and finished out my 6. oh..and just to stick this in there--i did stretch, and did a good warm up of a 20min run, etc. but i've never run like this before and i think that's why i got hurt. either way, i iced it, rested, etc. anyway, it was still a bit sore when i warmed up with the 20min run this morning, but nothing major. so after that it was time for sprints. i was a little nervous to start because i didn't want to get hurt..i guess i should have listened to myself because that's exactly what happened. i started my first sprint and not even a few steps into it a shooting pain down the back of my left leg (which has been sore off and on for weeks now--i've been icing that too.) so i took a deep breath, talked to my running buddy for a few minutes and got myself together. i prepared to try it again, but planned to start slower and work my way up to speed. and just as last time, no more than another few steps into it i felt a shooting pain down my leg. but this time it was HORRIBLE and it was the top of my right thigh.
that was it for me. i called it quits. i know that i should have done that after the run, but i really wanted to stay on schedule. now, because of my eagerness, strictness, obsession, etc..i've hurt myself pretty badly. my hamstring on my left leg isn't that bad, but my quad on my right leg is terrible. it's sore just touching it. i've been icing both of them, taking aleve and trying to keep off of my feet as much as i can...which is almost impossible with my "job!" so..ever since then i've been researching as to what exact muscles i hurt, and what to do to "fix" them and to get back on my schedule as quick and painlessly as possible. i've come across quite a few links and sites explaining in detail how to take care of it by icing, resting, elevating and what stretches and exercises to do to help myself mend.. (btw..anyone reading this that has any suggestions, advice or whatever, please feel free to share!)
so with that..i'm not sure what to do tomorrow. should i run? should i take a recovery day? it also got me thinking that each set of my 10wk running schedules thus far i've encountered some type of injury or setback. the first set i broke one of my toes. i didn't break it by running, but by hitting it on a silly baby gate. so that injury wasn't running related. the last 10wks i hurt my heel somehow and now have plantar fasciitis..which i ended up going to the doctor for and got a steroid shot in my foot so that's pretty much a non-issue now. and now the most recent 10wks..i hurt/pull/tear (whatever you want to call it or whatever it is i did..) my right quad and left hamstring muscles. seriously? what the eff? i am a firm believer in the whole "everything happens for a reason" and definitely a firm believer in karma...so what gives God? universe? what kind of message or sign is this? how far do i read into this or do i just chalk it up to a typical runner's thing and get over it?
i'm at a loss right now. i'm just thrown off and feel really dumpy about it all. i feel like i thought i knew what my passion was and then the alarm went off, i woke up and realized it was all a dream. or that you really truly believe something, just to find out that it was all a lie. i feel let down, pissed off, frustrated, sad and confused.


more on this later..comments definitely welcome. thanks for reading...and no, this wasn't meant to be a pity party or a pitch for an ego boost...just me, clearing my head.




oh and ps..i was really proud of myself today for running despite the 35mph winds that should have deterred me. (and yes, that was my own ego boost..that was definitely deserved!)